Hello friends! Last week we got through the steps needed to start building up our self-worth. I am hoping that these steps were helpful to you. This week we will be discussing how self-worth affects your sexual health. I know this may be a new concept to think about, however, these two things go hand in hand. Let me tell you why…
I am going to get a little personal here in the hopes that my story will help someone else out there. As I said in one of my first posts, I have never really had any self-worth. I equated my self-worth with how I looked. This really affected my mental health and obviously how I viewed myself. Because of this I sought validation from other sources. The validation that I felt the best about was that from men. Now, I was never one to get a lot of attention from guys. I never had a high school boyfriend. I never got asked to prom and I could tell you that didn’t bother me, but it did. So, when I started getting attention it made me feel seen and because of this I made decisions I really wish I didn’t.
The one decision I made that really took me on a downward spiral was giving myself to someone I shouldn’t have. Someone who I now know was using me and did not care about me at all. This was a very hard thing to go through especially for someone who wanted to wait until marriage or at the very least wanted to wait until I was with someone who really loved me. Now whatever self-worth I did have was completely gone and the bad decisions kept coming. I was not in control of my sexual health and honestly I did not even consider it or care about it because what was the point anymore?
Looking back it was like I was doing all this to punish myself for making a decision I wish I didn’t make, which is a really hard thing to come to terms with.
Thankfully I got out of this way of thinking and am now in a much better place. I know I am worthy of keeping my body and mind safe and healthy and you too are worthy of that. We don’t need to punish ourselves or self-destruct because of the things we’ve done in the past. Let’s just get up, brush ourselves off and keep going because again, we are worth it.
Until next time,
Morgan
